"Nothing is impossible with God. That's the message I return to most often. On the first day of the week, the Gospel of John tells us that most of the disciples were cowering behind closed doors, out of fear. After Good Friday, the disciples were terrified. Earlier, on Holy Thursday, we are told by Matthew that all of them fled from the Garden, in fear. That evening, Peter denied knowing Jesus. If they were afraid before Jesus was sentenced to death, imagine their reactions after seeing him marched through the streets of Jerusalem, nailed to a cross, and hung until dead. Their leader was executed as an enemy of the state.
Locked behind closed doors after the death of the person in whom they had placed all their hope - is there a more vivid image of fear?
The disciples failed to realize - again - that they were dealing with the Living God, the same one whose message to Mary was "Nothing will be impossible with God." They could not see beyond the walls of that closed room. They were unwilling to accept that God was greater than their imaginations.
Perhaps they can be forgiven - Jesus was dead, after all. And who could have predicted the Resurrection? Then again, maybe we shouldn't let the disciples off so easily. Jesus had always confounded their expectations - healing the sick, stilling a storm, raising the dead - so perhaps they should have expected the unexpected. But they did not.
Often, we find ourselves incapable of believing that God might have new life in store for us. "Nothing can change," we say. "There is no hope." This is when we end up mired in despair, which can sometimes be a reflection of pride. That is, we think that we know better than God. It is a way of saying, "God does not have the power to change this situation." What a dark and dangerous path is despair, far darker than death.
How many of us believe parts of our lives are dead? How many believe that parts of our family, our country, our world, our church cannot come to life? How many of us feel bereft of the hope of change?
This is when I turn to the Resurrection. Often, I return to the image of the terrified disciples cowering behind closed doors. We are not called to live in that room. We are called to emerge from our hiding places and to accompany Mary, weeping sometimes, searching always, and ultimately blinded by the dawn of Jesus's new life - surprised - delighted, and moved to joy. We are called to believe what she has seen; He is risen."
Taken from Jesus, A Pilgrimage by James Martin S.J. page 414
